A Facebook status started this. So I'll start from the beginning.
This is what I posted:
"There's still hope," she said. I nodded, choosing to keep my opinion to myself. It's rare. But it happens.
And then my friend Annie, a Proverbs 31 woman through the alphabet and back again, sent me this Brandon Heath song.
I won't go into where my mind has been, exactly what I've been thinking, and the conversations I've been having with God. Some things are only between you and your Creator.
This is what I can tell you: He is up to something.
Maybe this is only me. Maybe it's everyone but me. But often I look at the vast timetable and events of life, the swaths of an era I've been destined to live within, and wonder, 'What the bloody blue blazes am I doing here?'
No, the answer is not in experiences, in more hobbies, in seeing the world, in being famous, in finding recognition, in winning awards, in seeing myself on the big screen, in going back to school, in throwing away my toilet paper and living among aborigines.
It isn't in any of these places. Not one. Try them all out. All you'll end up with is a room of dusty awards, knowledge you never needed, postcards in various languages, and the empty realization life ticked away while you were busy prodding it with a self-seeking microscope.
All I need to know, all I need to remember, be reaffirmed, take into my breast bone and grasp it like air, is that I'm here in service to my Savior. And He's not finished with me yet.
No matter my doubts, my confusion, my unanswered questions and long piercing silences awaiting a word of thunderous direction, He has a plan, a purpose, a destiny fashioned precisely for me. It may not hold all the things I can imagine - thank God.
That's all. That's all I needed to know. Whatever comes, whatever doesn't, I know I'm not here for nothing.
In the end, my friends, what I discover is hope, like the lady said. There is still hope. Not frivolous. Not porous and shallow. Not even baseless or emotionalized. What I find is a hope of substance. We are here, we are known, and God himself, though mentally quite unreachable, knows even the correct spelling of our name.
He's definitely up to something.
3 comments:
Awesome post, TL! I'm going through Beth Moore's Esther study right now, and last night was the "for such a time as this" chapter, so Beth talked about what destiny really means. It was pretty great, and definitely encouraging. God placed us here at this time on purpose, and yes, He is up to something behind the scenes, even when He seems absent. (The book of Esther never directly mentions Him.) So stay strong and be bold in faith and hope, because He's using you in more ways than you know already!!
Love the post... and I love Lindsey's comment too. Good stuff.
Been on vacation out-of-state immediately followed by family houseguests so I'm just getting caught up...what a great post! When God speaks through someone else almost exactly the same things that I am hearing, mulling around in my head/ meditating on, I say I received a kiss on the cheek from God. Oh yeah! To live out the destiny which the Lord has prepared for us to walk in is as good as it gets. "Now faith is the SUBSTANCE of things hoped for..." I've camped out on that phrase for a long time.
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